arrow-shortcommentfacebookhearticon-commentCreated using Figmaicon-heartCreated using Figmaicon-shareCreated using Figmapost-audioCreated using Figmapost-imageCreated using Figmapost-quoteCreated using Figmapost-standardCreated using Figmapost-videoCreated using Figmasharetwitter

Among the seemingly unlimited level of bigotry and ignorance of many people, especially those who have the power to make decisions that affect our lives (and none of theirs), it's great to find an equally important number of people who are caring, supportive and are aware of the others and the world around them. I am awed again and again how shared vulnerability creates beautiful human connections in the darkest days. —cy.wtf

0

1

Lisboa & Syllabus

This month I found the best book of the year so far for me: SyllabusSyllabus, by Lynda BarryLynda Barry—a mentor and a teacher who, without even knowing it, is guiding me by the hand through all sorts of unknown territories and creative explorations. In the last weeks I slept next to this book, hugged it, hold it, took it to planes, conferences, talks, meetings, restaurants and parks. It’s a wonderful creative masterpiece.

Among countless of other things, Lynda Barry proposes a different approach to journaling and life. She encourages her students to listen to lectures, videos or talks without really looking whatever they are listening to. Instead, they have to scribble or color stuff in a notebook while they listen with attention.

I have been doing this in all talks I listened during Web Summit and realized something amazing: that the talks that have most meaning and impact for me are those from which I can capture the biggest amount of images.

For long time I have been collecting random images, words and experiences without really thinking about what an image is. Lynda Barry’s teaching is all about images, and my life has recently turned into a more vivid collage of them thanks to her.

Here is a small collection of images from my recent trip to Lisbon:

Saw
Big underwear hanging from wires outside the windows of some buildings.
Neighbors conversating to each other for a long time from one window to the other.
Many beds ready for airbnb guests, seen from several viewpoints inside the city.
Pigeons climbing a wall.
A dog going down the mountain, and later on drinking from a small water hose in its owners backpack.
My travel mate’s yellow flip flops.
My roommate stretching her arms with a stretcher while talking to me.
A group of scouts inspecting a map trying to find the best route to climb a mountain.
A big cross near the lighthouse, lit by the stars.
Colorful laces on an old lady’s shoes.
One woman fixing the back of the dress of another one, while they were laughing out loud in the bus and everyone was laughing with them.
A dog with its tail between the legs.
Old lady selling ginginha while listening telenovela in her bluetooth headset.
A cemetery sign saying that it’s only opened between 10:00 and 13:00.
A royal tomb.
A guy dressed in a big poo costume. Also, a pile of colorful toilet paper.
People piled up like in a can of sardines inside a small old tram.
A 2 year old girl kicking a wall with energy.
A crushed banana in the street.
A man of about 45-50 years old skating like a pro in the street. He looks at me and says “Boa noite!” while waving his hand.
Couple fighting in the street. He speaks portuguese out loud and holds a child in his arms. She watches him tense with closed tight lips.
Pigeons getting their feet wet in the sand and then flying scared.
Luggage wheels going through the cobbles in order to reach the mirador and get a selfie.
Clueless face of airport’s security stuff when they couldn’t guess my gender.


Didn’t See
People asking for money in the public transport → which doesn’t mean that there are not.
Grey skies.


Did
Feel the warmth of the sun stroking my face again, my arms without winter clothes.
See the sea but I could not smell the ocean.
Go for a hike on the beach and got lost in a mountain.
Climb a mountain in the middle of darkness without lanterns.
Go to this coffee place twice where the waitress has always a very sad face.
Talk with a lot of people everyday at the conference.
Got very sick the day before of the conference, went to the pharmacy and asked them to give me any drugs that would keep me talkative.
Orchestrate a feminist rebellion.
Find new allies.


Heard
“The only word I can use to describe this church is Kardashian”.
“Giovanni took me to that talk about racism.. I don’t go to these talks anymore. There were two white guys in the poster and the black guys were not.. and the talk was actually about racism”.
“I prefer not to vote, the worst of all is radical left, I lived 16 years of communism, which is no longer communism, it is dictatorship.”
“The military are the ones who killed my university colleagues.”
“She told me that she had found a much better life, that this was not the life she wanted to have, and she left me, I had never fucked anyone else, never partied… what I regret is that I left my friends, everything for her”.
“I have a communist friend.
Ok, then I’ll stop following you.”
“I always wanted to be a rockstar, and then ended up being an artist”.
“A vida não é fácil, tem que trabalhar”.
“When we are cold we say buhuhuhuhuhu, hahaha!”
“It fucked me, you know, and for 2 years it was a nightmare. She couldn’t deal with the fact that I was getting married”.
“How long did you guys dated before getting married?.. Two or three years. She wanted it”.
“I think the bed is a very good one.. not for the lovers, haha”.
“If you want a rich trip, travel like a poor person”.
“Place yourself over there for the picture.. yeah good, now put a philosophical face”.
“Hi! Would you like to go up? It’s much more fun with me”.
“Did you know that this girl was 30 years old and still a virgin?”.
“This anxiety is inside all of us, you know?”.
“Cocaine, chico?”.
“I am really into heavy metal and porn.. ” (a couple of seconds pause) “…well I am actually more into heavy metal”.
“It takes the double of time it took you to get a beating to get over it”.
“Agora todo viro em restaurante para turistas”.
“Guys let me take the picture, the picture por favor. Ahhh I hate people.. Ok, I love people again”.
“Next time you should be speaking in Web Summit. I am going to put you in that stage next year”.


Said
Posso sentar aqui? Tem lugar? Então vou querer isso … o que é isso?
Sim, isso e um chá preto sem açúcar por favor.
Tem comida sem carne?
Onde fica o banheiro?


In other news, Fever RayFever Ray released a new album ❤💕

1

1

Autumn, a love song and some books

The leaves start falling with his song.

Some people leave the world and leave behind such a profound trace of inspiration. Sometimes only when you notice that you are never going to see them again, you realize how much they have influenced you. Thanks Karin for leaving your mark. And thank you for this wonderful bookAnd thank you for this wonderful book.


Heard
“I really feel I’m sparkling from the inside but I don’t know where to put it”.
“If you fall I’ll virtually blow on your wound”.
“We had some really boring sad sex. It’s like when you wake up next morning and said Fuck my life, tomorrow It’s going to get better”.
“Some things are not good dry. Cake. Pools. Sex. But tofu is different”.
“You are going to make a great old person. You always take the short step, never waste energy”.
“This is ikea. What do you expect. Everything that is not fried doesn’t taste like anything”.
“Du, ich mache alles gerne für geld. Für Geld kann ich fast alles machen”.

A: The aim of my life is to have grandchildren.
B: Really? But you don’t even have children yet.
A: I know, but I really want to have grandchildren.

“It’s my Robbin to my batperson”.
“I grew up in Ikea”.
“The only thing I have to do in life is to die. Besides that, I don’t have to do anything else, I can do whatever I want”.
“I know that sometimes it is time for me to shine and sometimes it’s time to let other people shine”.
“Art is never finished, only abandoned”.
“If you try to simply control your hatred, then perhaps, the more you try to control it, the more you’ll hate yourself”.
“You can cry.. why don’t you cry? You won’t die of crying”.

I felt sheepish.


Music that found me
Willis Earl Beal - Too Dry To CryWillis Earl Beal - Too Dry To Cry Eric Dolphy - Out To Lunch!Eric Dolphy - Out To Lunch! Johnny Hodges & Wild Bill Davis - Blues For MadeleineJohnny Hodges & Wild Bill Davis - Blues For Madeleine Bessie Smith - Tain't Nobody Business If I DoBessie Smith - Tain't Nobody Business If I Do

and freak musical gems
Susumu Yokota - Acid Mt. FujiSusumu Yokota - Acid Mt. Fuji Yasuaki Shimizu - KakashiYasuaki Shimizu - Kakashi Samsara Blues Experiment - Long Distance TripSamsara Blues Experiment - Long Distance Trip


Books read
James Baldwin.. many of his books. Some of my favorites: “If Beale Street Could Talk”, “Giovannni’s Room”, “Nobody Knows My Name” and “Notes of a Native Son”. The two first books are fiction and the other two are autobiographical. Baldwin taught me so many things about life so far, his teachings are like punches in the face sometimes, some other times are like buckets of cold water and eventually like bright flashes of light. All of the teachings always tell me wake up, wake up, see this, see that.

Ajahn Sucitto, “Kamma and the end of Kamma”. Brilliant book.

A lot of books about creativity and productivity that weren’t really meaningful. Nothing worth sharing.

Some books about writing..
“On writing”, Stephen King.
“The 3 AM Epiphany” (fun writing exercises that reactivated my writing mood)
“Bird by Bird”, by Anne Lamott (constantly rereading this book, it’s one of the best I’ve ever read).
“Catching the Big Fish”, by David Lynch.


Saw
A twenty something year old person kissing their father before running to catch the ubahn.
Long pink nails from the cashier.
A woman buying fish.
A person entering the number 19 but they didn’t live there.
A window with 53 cactus.
Three crows flying over the cemetery.
A pair of abandoned leather boots.
Five chairs abandoned on different streets.
Someone looking at me, looking down the floor and blushing.
A child crossing the street running towards me, asking if he could interview me.
A lot of people pretending to be cool and important.


Random thoughts
I am very frustrated. I wanna cry actually (after spending the whole day in a feature that didnt work!)
That instant when you have a sudden moment of brilliance and solve all the coding challenges of the day (another day, another mood)

Don’t dispair, whatever situation or mood you are currently in, it will go away. Many more doors will be opened, many more opportunities will come and many more meaningful people will show up, even if you don’t see them right now. Just give yourself more love right now, be more tender, more forgiving towards everything you do. It will be alright, everything is gonna be alright.

Apparently I have been cooking tofu the wrong way my whole life.

How weird is to see people in good mood in the train.

Delusion is what people have when they think that Trump will do all the opposite that what he promised in his campaign.

I like the perfume of some people when they clap enthusiastically.

0

1

Contemporary Art found in Google Maps source

0

1

In the end, only three things matter: how much you loved, how gently you lived, and how gracefully you let go of things not meant for you —Buddha

0

1

No Kids for Me, Thanks!

me

What about meeting way before? We still need to get popcorn and whiskey 😱.

friend

What’s way before? I need to (…) so I suppose the ealier I can do is at 18:30

me

Ok let’s aim to that.

friend

I will text you when I am on my way.

Popcorn is good. I didn’t eat anything decent the whole day.

Whiskey might prove deadly on an empty stomach however.

me

That’s why I thought on eating before, as I know the best place. But I will go now as I am starving.

friend

Damn

me

The best place and the best price. It’s incredible cheap.

friend

I am very envious. What kind of food?

me

Did I mention the best food?

friend

🖕 (middle finger)

me

It’s syrian food, similar to the one we had. But more delicious and cheaper.

friend

Fucking fuck. I am really hungry and I won’t have time to eat. I didn’t think about timing at all.

me

If I would be really generous I would buy you food while I am there. But today I am rather sensible and I just got a middle finger.

friend

Do I need to get naked with you? Trust me, that would be traumatizing for you, not generous.

me

Oh the indecent proposal won’t make any difference.

Besides, you brought that up twice today.

friend

True. I must be ovulating.

me

We will find you someone.

Wait and you are coming to the screening for no kids. Are you joking??

We will never find someone in that screening.

friend

Let me put it this way. I would rather sew my vagina up that have children.

me

Ok, you win. I’ll bring you food.

If you are interested, we were talking about this wonderful film.

0

1

Have an orgy, save a whale

Another old chat… I love old chats.

me

but what happens is that every time I speak with anybody about orgies, they look at me scared

Ana

hahaha
It’s because people don’t understand

me

well, if people understood, wars would be over
there would be no hunger or poverty
they would be able to choose happiness
nobody would remember money or work

me

hum… my mum is online
I will ask her, I want her opinion

me

she’s not answering me..

Ana

hahahahaha
are you saying that the big problem of the world is the lack of orgies?

me

wait, I will paste what we talk

me

mum I have a question

mum

tell me

me

which do you think is the reason why people don’t organize more orgies and live happier?

mum

are you kidding me?
I didn’t go to any orgy and I am happy

me

that’s because you didn’t go to any orgy yet! haha

me

I am discussing with Ana about sexuality and now I am doing a quick research
why people don’t free their sexuality and why orgy is a taboo, for instance

mum

did you ever go to one?

Ana

if your mum doesn’t reply is because she fainted

me

wait, she’s answering

Ana

I don’t think an orgy is necessarily needed
but a kind of freedom is needed, yes
a sexual freedom.. and a freedom of many other things

me

what do you mean with ‘sexual freedom’?

Ana

there is a lot of people that are sexually repressed
that they don’t do the things that they would like or the things they would like to try
so their repression is released in another way
reflected in other problems
that’s what I think, at least

me

are you speaking in the name of others? 😉
do you think that the orgy is like a repressed collective desire?

Ana

hahaha
I think so!
let’s make a campaign, Cy
I have a slogan:
“Have an orgy, save a whale”
hahaha

me

HAHAHA
wait, this needs to be my new facebook status

Ana

hahaha
we can also add it to “to plant a tree, to have a child, to write a book, to have an orgy”

me

to have a child?!
earth is populated enough

me

wait, mum is answering now

me

so, are you saying that the only people that are searching for orgies are the ones that are sexually frustrated?

mum

yeesss
because they don’t know what they want and they keep on searching

me

it seems then that ‘sexual frustration’ and ‘sexual repression’ are in the same side of the street but represented for the two sides of the coin

me

I don’t necessarily agree with that
you can perfectly know what you want and to know that it’s to participate in collective sex

mum

why?
sex is not something to “participate” like a contest or something like that

me

I didn’t say that
if you add the word ‘contest’ you go into another meaning
don’t interpret that far.
what you say is an idea of sex
there are many others
monogamy is an idea of a type of relationship
there are many others too..

Ana

I think that women nowadays we are more happy than women from before
because we are not so sexually repressed anymore
before they did ‘the missioner’ and that’s all
hahaha
and that’s how we were born

me

wait, mum is saying some really interesting things
I never spoke about this with her, it’s crazy to do it in a chat
oh.. the benefits of the internet! 🙂

me

she really thinks I am a slut now
but.. it was also time for her to know it 🙂

Ana

hahaha
we all knew
she was the only missing

me

my father..

Ana

you say that your mum is not going to join us in our orgy campaign?

me

it seems that no, there is no common basis for our agreement

0

1

January was grey

Was
Very much in the mood for drawing.
I thought very often in jokes and phrases to draw in mugs.
Depressed. Very depressed.
Sometimes happy.
Anxious, nervous and excited. All at the same time.
Exultant.
Thoughtful.
Enthusiastic about a new project.
Winter-like.


Did
Hand-draw many ceramic mugs with my friend the greatest illustrator, Booboo.
We had ridiculous amount of fun doing it and we want to do it again. Someday, maybe.
Put online this blog.
Meditated many more times than the previous month.
Listened to many audios from Jennifer Piercy to be able to fall asleep. They are excellent. I recommend them to you if you ever struggle to sleep at night.
Removed a lot of snow from the entrance of our building.
Studied many hours of web animation.
Won a pitch. Took a new project.
Negotiated my daily rate like a boss.
Decided to stay in my office for one more month.
Where am I going to live? I don’t know!
Got an unlimited residence permit!!!
Watch movies and ate popcorn with curry and chili.
Paid to hear two hours intellectual discussion.. in german.


Saw
The cemetery turning gray with winter.
The cemetery already gray.
A lot of snow.
Children building a snowman three times their size.
A woman cursing her dog on the street.
Giant snowballs, at least half a meter high.
A lint dancing on the floor of the train.
A woman wiping her tears as she walked down the street.
The sun timidly shining above the roof of some museums.
Some people kissing.
Lots of naked butts in the sauna.


Heard
“I think at least half of our guest do not deserve the effort you are investing!”
“Did you see that little girl in the shop today? Did you speak to her? She was so delightful
(now imagine delightful with a strong British accent)
“The queen’s gonna die soon” (on the street)
“Let’s build an igloo as quick as possible!” (kids playing in the snow)


Music that found me
Freude am Sitzen & Herr Yobovski
Moderat — Live
Berlin Community Radio
Kevin MacLeod — Junkyard Tribe


Read
“The important principle in meditation is that whatever occurs, don’t be in doubt over it. Doubt only adds to the suffering. If the mind is bright and awake, don’t doubt that. It’s a condition of mind. If it’s dark and dull, don’t doubt about that. Just continue to practice diligently without getting caught up in reactions to that state. Taking note and being aware of your state of mind, don’t have doubts about it. It is just what it is.” —Ajahn Chah.
“Anyone who claims the Valley is meritocratic is someone who has profited vastly from it via non-meritocratic means like happenstance, membership in a privileged cohort, or some concealed act of absolute skulduggery”. Original link.
“- What do you want to be when you grow up?”
“- An artist.”
“- What about something more practical?”
“- A wage slave.”
“- That’s more like it.”

“I wish you all a year where we build each other up instead of breaking each other down”.
“You know its wrong but sometimes essential”
“I think perfectionism is based on the obsessive belief that if you run carefully enough, hitting each stepping-stone just right, you won’t have to die.” — Anne Lamott in “Bird by Bird”.
“I came to believe that I might be able to put a pencil in my hand and make something magical happen. Then I wrote some terrible, terrible stories.” — Anne Lamott in “Bird by Bird”.
“I heard a preacher say recently that hope is a revolutionary patient; let me add that so is being a writer. Hope begins in the dark, the stubborn hope that if you just show up and try to do the right thing, the dawn will come. You wait and watch and work: you don’t give up.” — Anne Lamott in “Bird by Bird”.

“I believed, before I sold my first book, that publication would be instantly and automatically gratifying, an affirming and romantic experience, a Hallmark commercial where one runs and leaps in slow motion across a meadow filled with wildflowers into the arms of acclaim and self-esteem”. — Anne Lamott in “Bird by Bird”.

“I try to make sure they (her students) understand that writing, and even getting good at it, and having books and articles published, will not open the doors that most of them hope for. It will not make them well. It will not give them the feeling that the world has finally validated their parking tickets, that they have finally arrived”. — Anne Lamott in “Bird by Bird”.

“I also tell them that sometimes when my writer friends are working, they feel better and more alive than they do at any other time. And sometimes when they are writing well, they feel that they are living up to something. It is as if the right words, the true words, are already inside them, and they just want to help get the out.” — Anne Lamott in “Bird by Bird”.


Interesting words
Skulduggery.
Lucky sod / lucky git.
Pichadura. (ha! you will never know what it means)

0

1

Travel log: Argentina

I was
Inspired to put a blog online again after many many years.
Extremely sick. Food-poisoned.
Crying out of loud (my ribs ended up hurting so much).
Social.
Happy.
Cared and loved.
Excited, Inspired, Restless.
Relieved and worried.
Food-poisoned again (my stomach won’t let me in peace).
Bitten by dozen of mosquitoes every day.
Annoyed.
Relaxed.
Captain America. And then Spider Man. And sometimes Hulk.
Exhausted after 22 hours of flight. No idea what time, which day, and what temperature it was.
Enjoying summer.
Happy to meet so many people again.
Happy to be accepted as I am.
Politically revolted.
Feeling apocalyptic after Trump’s victory.


I heard
Lots of crickets at night.
A fancy car alarm tune.

“I am the guru of the dick now”

“Aggression is instinctive, it is the response to hostility. When something agresses you or you feel fear you feel aggression, it is like a natural reaction of defense. Now when you add values to that aggressiveness, it becomes violence.”

“Did you come with your german boyfriend?”
“On me everything looks good”

Cuba was the best experience in my life. There I learnt everything I know right now.
Do you wanna come back?
Yes! but I have children now.

The chipping of some birds in Buenos Aires (don’t know which). I never hear these birds in Berlin. They put me in a good mood.

Gaby’s neighbors fighting almost every day. The guy yelling at a woman with a extremely high pitched voice. She doesn’t say much.
The sound of the rain on the tin roof.
The fan noise (and instantly falling asleep).
“I never had a feeling of vulnerability like this, of not feeling safe anywhere”
“The reason what they vote him is the same reason of why they are giving a like in facebook”
“First night in the hometown and you are usually thinking: what the hell I am doing here”.
“My dog is named Simona in honor of Simone Weil
“I am gonna miss you a lot my friend. Thanks for everything and we see each other on my return”.
“Look, if you die the same day you were born.. (on the street, couldn’t hear the end!!!!!!!!)
“Do you know what fills me with pride? That you are getting ahead without having to ask favors to anyone (on the street)
“The human being is very evil. For my taste, very nonconformist”(on the street)
“Every flower fragance has a smell of shit in it. When you are making a jazmin perfume, you will need something sweet, something that smells like (…) and something that smells like shit, which is actually not shit, its earthy, and every flower needs an earthy ingredient.. but the earthy fragrance does smell like shit. Isn’t it funny that all the nice smells include a really disgusting smell in them?”

“Just because there is not a war it doesn’t mean there’s peace”

– Grandma, how do you drink mate?
– Well… with a bombilla..
(my grandma, when I ask her how she usually drink mate when I was preparing one for her)

“I met Rosita. I told her: How good is that we meet in a party because we the old people usually meet in the wakes” (my grandma, when she met my other grandma in a party)
“I was really looking forward to talking more with you”
“Why eating meat is not a choice and not eating meat it is?
“Do not worry: occupy yourself” (in spanish sounds better as it was a game of words)
“Form is temporary but stupidity is permanent”
“I’m very happy to see you. I ended up very late from work and I was tired but I said “I go” because I really wanted to see you. I’m really touched, I love you so much”


Books that people recommended me
“Masculine Domination” — Pierre Bourdieu.
“Masculinidades incómodas: jóvenes, género y pobreza” — Néstor Artiñano.
“Rebeldes y Confabulados”. — Dardo Escavino.
“La condición obrera” — Simone Weil


I did..
Get rid of my woolen socks as soon as I landed in Sao Paulo.
Wear lots of summer clothes.
Spend really little time in front of the computer.
Play TEG Stopped reading news and avoided my facebook feed after Trump’s victory.
Wear a mustache.
Play with my nephew and niece. We made lots of bubbles, play soccer, were superpeople, solved puzzles, danced and sang songs.
Paint on ceramic cups.
Carve a really small penis out of a banana.
Laugh at my fathers jokes.
Decide not to pay a debt.
Sleep many nights at my mum’s. This is probably the first time I decide to sleep there since I moved out when I was 18.
Steal fruits from my grandparents neighbours.
Team-up with Gaby to prepare games for my sisters bachelorette’s party. The games were awesome!
Vomit 5 times during a night.

Knock the wall and call for my mother when I was vomiting so much that I couldnt hold myself in front of the toilet anymore. She was on the other side of the door waiting for my call. She hold my hair when I bent down many times and gave me a blanket when I was freezing afterwards. She gave me water to drink and put me to bed afterwards. I thought there were at least 25 years since the last time we went through this together and at least 15 years since the last time I called her for help.

Carry a lot of beer bottles.
Hit my head really strong in the brim of a metal door.
Spent as much time as I could with my grandparents. I loved being able to cook for them, put my grandma’s feet in salty water, listen to all their stories, over and over again.. find out that my grandma has a precious sense of humor.. to take pictures of them… to listen which was my grandpa’s experience during Argentina’s last dictatorship.
Not sleep one night. Too restless. Too inspired. Too hot.
Meet a lot of people. Many people I wanted to meet and many people that some people wanted to introduced me to.
Drank many black beers.
Hug a lot of people.
Get emotional.
Meditate twice the whole month.
Took pictures with an analog camera.
Ate reviro.
Grilled vegetables. Drank many many mojitos.
Travel too many hours.


I did…, although it was a bad idea
Eat a lot of flour, eggs and cheese.
Drink tap water.


Music that found me
Sia – Chandelier
Viento Sur – Muerdo
Buena Vista Social Club
BIFE
Orquesta Popular San Bomba
La Delio Valdez
Julieta Venegas & Marisa Monte – Ilusión
Las Taradas
Miss Bolivia
Tonolec
Soha – Mil Pasos
Imany – Don’t Be So Shy
Paula Fernandes, Victor & Leo – Não Precisa
Maximiliano – rap improvisado (in the underground)


I said
“I love you!”
“Last night I had an erotic dream with you.. but I will keep it for myself.”
“I miss you”
“How good is to see you again!”
“Contrasexual Manifest is one of the best books I read in my life. Its probably in the top three along with What Does It Mean To Be White and King Kong Theory and also The Ethical Slut”.
“Come and visit me soon!”


Random thoughts
“How, once we learn certain economic structures and behaviors in our life, we keep repeating them to all places we go. The only thing that changes is the context, not the mindset”.
“Fear and aversion are the worst reactions that can come up to a series of dreadful events” (Trump’s election, Brexit, Macri’s presidential win, Ferdinand Marcos’ reburial as hero, etc).
“Everything will be alright”.


I saw
A young window cleaner offering to return money to a driver at a stoplight because the driver seemed to be dissatisfied with the cleaning. The driver made a gesture of disdain with his hand and drove away.


Things I read
“Goodbye Andy”
“Master de lxs Masters.. Teacher de lxs Teachers.. Yes de lxs Yes” (a welcome sign for me at the airport)
“It’s Trump”.
That the current Philippines government want to bury dictator Ferdinand Marcos in the National Heroes Cemetery..
“I totally understand that you are having time with your family and friends but you should be able to take a day off to sleep with me”.
“This is incredibly beautiful. Thank you very much.”
“What a beautiful surprise!!! Its a joy to read you, Cy. Its really a shame that after so many years you are all together and we are not there. Your uncle’s brother is very ill. Everything is very sad. Your words are a caress to the soul. A very big kiss.”
“They should concentrate on exhaling, like the cow that exhales while mooing. Concentrating on inspiration will weaken you. You’ll catch a cold. When you cry, you inspire. When one is happy, when one laughs, one concentrates in the exhalation. Thanks to this method you can control your spirit. Concentrate on exhalation when you are sad or feel weak. This will change your state of mind.”


I cooked
A soup.
Many salads.
Fruit salad.
Filled zucchini.
Many more things that I forgot.

  • Chipas
  • Delicious food
0

1

You, Gender-Fucker

This happened in 2011 and now it’s old. But I love migrating this story to whatever blog I have.


Driving around Monterrey, Mexico. Taxi driver looking at me through the mirror couple of times until I look at him while he’s doing it. He does it couple of more times, getting slightly embarrased when I catch him.

taxi driver

I mean, it’s not that I want to be rude or anything.. I don’t usually watch like this to people. but when you stepped into the car I really thought you were a guy…
(silence)

me

and now?

taxi driver

I don’t think that anymore. but you know? no offense.

me

it’s not an offense

(silence for couple of minutes)

me

what makes you think I am not a guy?

taxi driver

your voice… your lips. you don’t have facial hair..

me

I have hormonal problems.

taxi driver

Oh.. you know.. I didn’t want to offend you.

me

why do you think it’s so important to know whether someone is a man or a woman?

taxi driver

It’s different treatment. with a woman you are always more gentle.

me

what for?

taxi driver

well.. she’s a lady.

me

not all of them. some men are ladies too (I laugh)

he laughes too.

taxi driver

of course, but I don’t want to sleep with them.

me

So do you treat women as ladies because you want to sleep with them? (I laugh)

taxi driver

I mean.. not always. but with women you have to be a gentleman.

me

well, you have to be a gentleman, women have to be nice and friendly. and they smile at you when you talk

taxi driver

not always.. (smiles)

me

women cannot open their legs when they are seated, they cannot fart in public, if they scream out loud they are crazy bitches, they don’t make noise, they wear sexy clothes and they always shave and have nice smells.

taxi driver

this is what makes them very feminine, this is why we are crazy about them.

me

who told you that shit?

taxi driver

you don’t like feminine women? (looking outside the window)

me

I love women, but I think that feminine thing is very much invented. like the gentleman.. like the macho! (I make a gesture with my muscled arm)

(he is thinking something to say)

me

you check whether I am a man or woman to know if you need to treat me nice or normal, in order to see how many chances you have to pick me up.

(he laughs)

me

I think that’s all very much invented.

(he looks at me in the mirror again)

me

I know what you are thinking, you think I’m gay.

taxi driver

I cannot think something else, man.. sorry (he makes a gesture of irony)

me

I am gay. I love women.

(he laughs)

me

look, when you think in a really beautiful woman. let’s say you are masturbating and imagining the hottest woman.. what do you see? somebody like Pamela Anderson?

taxi driver

Megan Fox

me

Megan Fox.. ok. Dark hair, blue eyes, tall, well toned body, good abs, shaved legs, big red lips.. do you think that women are like this in ‘natural’ state?

taxi driver

hell no, check my wife!

(we both laugh, I have to laugh. seriously)

me

there is no woman like that in natural state. so what are you fantasying with? this thing that you imagine, it doesn’t exist!

taxi driver

of course it exists.

me

in the movies! but she was not like that all the time. she became that.. like all the other beautiful (making sign with fingers) women that we see in the ads. it’s all an invention.

taxi driver

we are in the matrix and nothing is what it seems..

me

exactly.

taxi driver

Ya, I saw this coming..

me

when you looked at me you said you thought I was a guy, and then you thought I was not. What made you think I was a guy?

taxi driver

…the clothes, the hair

me

Yes. and if I was wearing a dress you wouldn’t think I was a guy

taxi driver

it depends. certainly not if you are hairy with beard

me

but what if I am a woman, and I am still dressing like I am?
(silence)

me

what if I am a guy and I am wearing a dress?
what if I am a woman and if I am having a beard?

taxi driver

it would be obvious.

me

yes, easily recognizable.. like you thought I was a guy 🙂

taxi driver

yes, I see you are gay.. but from the other type.

me

haha, that’s the best thing I heard in the week! (I laugh). but do you see my point?

taxi driver

I see what you are trying to do. you are trying to convince me that femininity is invented.

me

no, no, no.. I’m not trying to do anything. but femininity IS invented: you want to know if I am a guy or a woman to treat me like a lady or not, possibly for picking me up.. (he laughs loudly). the radar needs to check, whether someone is man or woman, and immediately starts to behave. gentlemen pick up ladies.. ladies gets picked up by gentlemen. gentlemen don’t pick up guys, Megan Fox doesn’t exist: femininity is so much invented as heterosexuality it is!

taxi driver

haha, that is also the best thing I heard in the week

0

1