Was
Very much in the mood for drawing.
I thought very often in jokes and phrases to draw in mugs.
Depressed. Very depressed.
Sometimes happy.
Anxious, nervous and excited. All at the same time.
Exultant.
Thoughtful.
Enthusiastic about a new project.
Winter-like.


Did
Hand-draw many ceramic mugs with my friend the greatest illustrator, Booboo.
We had ridiculous amount of fun doing it and we want to do it again. Someday, maybe.
Put online this blog.
Meditated many more times than the previous month.
Listened to many audios from Jennifer Piercy to be able to fall asleep. They are excellent. I recommend them to you if you ever struggle to sleep at night.
Removed a lot of snow from the entrance of our building.
Studied many hours of web animation.
Won a pitch. Took a new project.
Negotiated my daily rate like a boss.
Decided to stay in my office for one more month.
Where am I going to live? I don’t know!
Got an unlimited residence permit!!!
Watch movies and ate popcorn with curry and chili.
Paid to hear two hours intellectual discussion.. in german.


Saw
The cemetery turning gray with winter.
The cemetery already gray.
A lot of snow.
Children building a snowman three times their size.
A woman cursing her dog on the street.
Giant snowballs, at least half a meter high.
A lint dancing on the floor of the train.
A woman wiping her tears as she walked down the street.
The sun timidly shining above the roof of some museums.
Some people kissing.
Lots of naked butts in the sauna.


Heard
“I think at least half of our guest do not deserve the effort you are investing!”
“Did you see that little girl in the shop today? Did you speak to her? She was so delightful
(now imagine delightful with a strong British accent)
“The queen’s gonna die soon” (on the street)
“Let’s build an igloo as quick as possible!” (kids playing in the snow)


Music that found me
Freude am Sitzen & Herr Yobovski
Moderat — Live
Berlin Community Radio
Kevin MacLeod — Junkyard Tribe


Read
“The important principle in meditation is that whatever occurs, don’t be in doubt over it. Doubt only adds to the suffering. If the mind is bright and awake, don’t doubt that. It’s a condition of mind. If it’s dark and dull, don’t doubt about that. Just continue to practice diligently without getting caught up in reactions to that state. Taking note and being aware of your state of mind, don’t have doubts about it. It is just what it is.” —Ajahn Chah.
“Anyone who claims the Valley is meritocratic is someone who has profited vastly from it via non-meritocratic means like happenstance, membership in a privileged cohort, or some concealed act of absolute skulduggery”. Original link.
“- What do you want to be when you grow up?”
“- An artist.”
“- What about something more practical?”
“- A wage slave.”
“- That’s more like it.”

“I wish you all a year where we build each other up instead of breaking each other down”.
“You know its wrong but sometimes essential”
“I think perfectionism is based on the obsessive belief that if you run carefully enough, hitting each stepping-stone just right, you won’t have to die.” — Anne Lamott in “Bird by Bird”.
“I came to believe that I might be able to put a pencil in my hand and make something magical happen. Then I wrote some terrible, terrible stories.” — Anne Lamott in “Bird by Bird”.
“I heard a preacher say recently that hope is a revolutionary patient; let me add that so is being a writer. Hope begins in the dark, the stubborn hope that if you just show up and try to do the right thing, the dawn will come. You wait and watch and work: you don’t give up.” — Anne Lamott in “Bird by Bird”.

“I believed, before I sold my first book, that publication would be instantly and automatically gratifying, an affirming and romantic experience, a Hallmark commercial where one runs and leaps in slow motion across a meadow filled with wildflowers into the arms of acclaim and self-esteem”. — Anne Lamott in “Bird by Bird”.

“I try to make sure they (her students) understand that writing, and even getting good at it, and having books and articles published, will not open the doors that most of them hope for. It will not make them well. It will not give them the feeling that the world has finally validated their parking tickets, that they have finally arrived”. — Anne Lamott in “Bird by Bird”.

“I also tell them that sometimes when my writer friends are working, they feel better and more alive than they do at any other time. And sometimes when they are writing well, they feel that they are living up to something. It is as if the right words, the true words, are already inside them, and they just want to help get the out.” — Anne Lamott in “Bird by Bird”.


Interesting words
Skulduggery.
Lucky sod / lucky git.
Pichadura. (ha! you will never know what it means)